A grand plan
I need to believe that … There has to be … There must be a “grand plan” out there. Life would be too depressing otherwise. I refuse to accept that life is a series of random error overlying the conscious choices we make. Our “predicament” can’t possibly be attributed, no matter how partial, to something as trivial as luck and/or chances. There would be no reason to live, or do, if that were the case. I would give up now and not bother trying.
A “grand plan” overseen by a benevolent … “thing” or “being” on the other hand offers hope. It holds out the possibility that things would change and that a better day would come. It suggests that our current scenario is temporal and that our pain and anguish would pass. Sooner or later. I might even buy the argument that my suffering is functional and that I am to learn something from the experience. But only if it was a means to an end that is far better than my present. A grand plan is a contract obligating me to continue living and struggling in return for those golden days where I pine for nothing more.
I need to believe there is a “grand plan” out there.
Posted on September 26th, 2003 by jl
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