Goodbye

Today, I take the first step on a journey from which I am not sure I will return.

Today, regardless of where this journey takes me, a new chapter begins in my life.

Goodbye double-storey brick house.
Goodbye squeaky fourth-step on staircase.
Goodbye back door that we rarely open.

Goodbye feature walls that have had to be painted several times over.
Goodbye bath-tub that we got for a bargain in a shop nearby.
Goodbye sideboard that took me ages to find.

Goodbye white breakfast counter.
Goodbye cranky front gates
Goodbye Rothkos, Boteros and Monets.

Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.

I don’t want to go. But I’ve not been given a choice.

So, goodbye.
Be well.

Watch over him for me.

No matter how high I climb,
how far I travel,
or how wide an ocean I cross,
he will remain ingrained my bones,
inflamed in my nerves,
and forever etched in my heart.

Watch over him for me.

  

6 Responses to “Goodbye”

  1. hopefully a new place to call home will prepare you for a new begining as well. *hugs*

  2. Jikon dear….*hugs*

  3. Simply Red’s Home

    ?Cause I long for a feeling of home
    Real life, depicted in song
    A loving memory
    After long, home is a place where I yearn to belong

    hope you get home soon…

  4. Jim,

    Thank you.
    That’s beautiful.

    I must find the song. If not the home….

  5. These two songs helped me get by many lonely hours in 2002. Don’t know of any better songs. Take care mate, take care and hold on…

    A Long December - Copyright: Counting Crows

    A long December and there’s reason to believe
    Maybe this year will be better than the last
    I can’t remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin’
    Now the days go by so fast

    And it’s one more day up in the canyons
    And it’s one more night in Hollywood
    If you think that I could be forgiven…I wish you would

    The smell of hospitals in winter
    And the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
    All at once you look across a crowded room
    To see the way that light attaches to a girl

    And it’s one more day up in the canyons
    And it’s one more night in Hollywood
    If you think you might come to California…I think you should

    Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
    And talked a little while about the year
    I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
    Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

    And it’s been a long December and there’s reason to believe
    Maybe this year will be better than the last
    I can’t remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
    To hold on to these moments as they pass

    And it’s one more day up in the canyon
    And it’s one more night in Hollywood
    It’s been so long since I’ve seen the ocean…I guess I should

    —-
    R.E.M. - Everybodyhurts
    Copyright: Berry/Buck/Mills/Stipe
    —-
    When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
    When you’re sure you’ve had enough of this life, well hang on
    Don’t let yourself go, ’cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

    Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it’s time to sing along
    When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
    If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
    When you think you’ve had too much of this life, well hang on

    ‘Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
    Everybody hurts. Don’t throw your hand. Oh, no. Don’t throw your hand
    If you feel like you’re alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

    If you’re on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
    When you think you’ve had too much of this life to hang on

    Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
    Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
    And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
    Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
    Everybody hurts. You are not alone

  6. david: hmmm… i’ve definitely got those two songs in my library…

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