negotiating monogamy

It just occurred to me how “odd” it is that gay men have to negotiate monogamy when entering into relationships whereas it’s taken for granted in the straight-world…

  

nobody knows

Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart
the way I do when I’m lying in the dark
and the world is asleep
And the road to darkness has a way
of always knowing my name

– Pink, “Nobody Knows”

  

saying nothing

i’m thinking this is one of those periods in life where if you have nothing good to say… best to say nothing. i need a break and thank god i had the foresight (purely accidental of course) to book an extended weekend away to sydney beginning this evening…

  

another quest

I’m on a quest again… After tonight, I need something other than a Malay or a Chinese to make this trip very muhibbah…! Any volunteers…??!!!

  

sleep

i want a nice hot shower, then i want to drug myself, crawl into bed and never wake up. I want sleep to stop my conscious mind thinking about my problems and help whisk them away. with any luck, i might never wake up, or wake up so far down the line that the problems will not be there anymore.

  

Music: "Full of Grace", Sarah McLachlan